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hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
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Tuesday, January 10, 2006 1:08 AM
wah. today's the 10th liao. IT'S A HOLIDAY. going out later. that's why now doing my homework. can do til i go bonkas arhs. started at 10plus. later 0130am, going to watch television. haha. what a nice plan i have. still left 8 more question from topic 7.2. sigh. all the graphs causing a headache now. sigh. today, i suddenly realised the reason why i am having headache nowadays. i didn't eat proper meals. i ate like, one proper meal every two days. haha. i'm not really trying to slim down, but i'm just lazy to eat. how i wish i do not need to eat forever. haha. another reason perhaps because i lack of sleep. now trying to train myself to sleep 4-5hours per day. this is not mad, but i just find that it is necessary bahs. duno lehz. try out first bahs.

sobs. my speed is really damn slow. still got tons to do, but i just do not know where to start. so sad. now want to start on revision liao, but then, i just cannot find the momentum to do so. things just come into my mind and i will start to ponder about it for a long time before i realised that i have to continue my studies. today, not in a very good mood in the afternoon. was raining heavily, very windy. a cool condition to do my work. but somehow, because of a few messages, the smile on my face disappear. i wanted it to return, but i could not. i'm tired, tired of the things that i have been doing last year. i want to forget everything, but i could not. the memories seem to be in my heart. the reason why i ask you whether you can take it as nothing has happed is going to affect the decision i made. somehow, i do not want to let you feel that i still mind what you said to me, i can tell you, i do not care anymore. if i have the feelings, i will have, if i do not have, then i'm sorry. the letter, i'm not so sure if i should show you. because i do not know whether you will be sad or happy after reading it. so i do not want to take the risk. forget about what i said to you. treat me the way you want to treat me. you are tired too. so don't think too much. know what exactly you want and work towards it. NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! NOTHING!!

got my 'o' level DNT paper liao. wah. i want to faint seh. through today's lesson, i suddenly felt that the most difficult thing about DNT is the folio. you will do till you go mad arhs. sigh. but i believe there's a purpose for me to enter into this combination. i know what i want to do in the future, but i'm not sure if this is my destiny. but for now, i will go and find out. (: wells, am i that scary? somehow, a lot of people are afraid of me. they just don't dare to talk to me. sad seh. i'm not that fierce bahs, though my looks are fierce. haha. but then, sigh. so many people younger than me de, most of them so afraid of me. hmph. how?? how to make sure i don't look so fierce?? can anyone tell me?? sigh

going off liao, want to finish at least two more question before i go watch tv. wahaha. nites. smiles and take care!!!